Losing my mind
I am am addict and have been this way as far back as I care to remember.I have no idea who I am anymore and im tired of chasing.I've use opiates for the past three years and two of those I spent in line at the methadone clinic.Methadone made me a zombie but I didn't feel the urge to use anything else and that was ok for a while.I finally quit the clinic 6 weeks ago and a week after started taking adderall for the withdrawal,huge mistake!Now I've created a different monster.I am loosing my mind trying to figure out how to surrender and want to move on but I am so angry I can't see anything but the negative.I am married for now with a beautiful daughter and I don't know why that's not enough?I would rather die than put my family thru anymore pain so I am reaching for a solution or some hope that I can get clean and feel true happiness again.Thanks