Yes, I relate to the 'great feelings about not drinking' and then.... wham I have a beer in my hand. Almost zombie like in my reaction - unaware.
Thoughts of drinking still run through my head but I have lost the zombie, no brain, reaction. I used alcohol to fill other needs so the drinking thoughts just mean that something else is lacking at the moment. Am I hungry, thirsty, lonely, tired, stressed? I am grateful for the new awareness and sobriety.
Thank you for the post,
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