I felt so frustrated when I made amends to my father. He brushed it off. I felt like he didn't understand what I was trying to do and I walked away thinking -- I just didn't get through to him. But, the point isn't how he receives it. It's in my courage and willingness to make it right.
I raided medicine cabinets, too. I used my tongue to cut others who tried to help me. I lied to doctors. I neglected my kids. In addition to coming clean, I've found the best amends is living right today, not doing those things today. Doing better today.
Oh, and my father? I finally did get to make a deeper kind of amends to him in the last month of his life. Thankfully, I didn't walk away from him the first time and take my willingness with me.
Peace & Love,
Sugah