Welcome to SR and I needn't chime in re the bottom issue. It has been well addressed. On a side note, Taz, I loved this "A bottom is the point where one wants to not drink more then they want to drink." I have never seen bottom defined so simply yet profoundly. I hit my bottom too and I thank God every day I have my husband, my child, my home, and no jail time because I most certainly could have lost all that had I continued. No question whatsoever.
(Okay, upon re-reading this I guess I "did" chime in regarding the bottom issue. LOL!)