I just came back to SR today after being away for a few months (sober). But, these last few weeks have seen slip after slip. It started with sharing a bottle of wine w/ my wife at dinner before Christmas, thought I could get away with it because I had "proven myself". That night went OK, so I thought I could drink on NYE - and got really drunk though I believe I hid it from others well. Then we knew we were going to get snowed in, so I made a quick trip to the liquor store so "my wife" would have something to drink - but *I* ended up getting drunk. Latest slip was super bowl night, and it is getting worse every time. I felt like death yesterday, but made it to work.
I don't want to start down this road again. I do realize I need to put the breaks on. "Two drinks" for me is NEVER enough, it seems.