And going on from what Tazman53 has said, I want to add "half measures availed us nothing, we stood at the turning point........." Dub, it's like you're at that turning point and having one foot in the door and the other outside the door.
Please know I'm not slamming you. I've been there but until I really put myself into working the steps and learning the "tools" I needed to stay sober how I worked it wasn't working.
I also know that when I was drinking and it wasn't giving me a "buzz" it's because I needed to drink in order to function, not have the shakes and be sick. I hope that's not where you're at.
I hope things don't get worse for you before they get better. I think it's great that you're getting exercise, but I did that too and it also didn't keep me sober. Just a thought.