Originally Posted by
mentallyexh 
Still refusing to confront his/our past. I don't know how to move forward with our relationship without his ability to discuss the past. I don't believe that we can simply sweep it under the rug and move forward, or I have no doubt that it will just retun. Also, against my better judgement I told him if he wanted to try he could come home, he refuses saying that why would he do that - to put up with my verbal abuse. For someone who complains about not being here....he sure is in no hurry to come back.
What I hear loud and clear, is that you are conflicted.
I say sit with it until you get more clarity. Do what has helped you in the past: journal, friend as a sounding board, post on s/r