Hi and Welcome,
I hope you decide that this is your bottom and that it's time to change.
As far as therapy/counselling, I know some people get lucky and find a good match with a therapist and it can be very beneficial. I tried a psychologist and an addiction counsellor. Neither of them helped me at all because I wasn't ready to make the changes in my life that I needed to make.
I hope you do whatever it takes to get sober!