I did a similar thing about 2 years ago. I had quit entirely for 3 months, and I was feeling really good about it. Inspite of that (feeling good) I thought I had it beat and that I could try drinking again, in moderation. I was successful, for the most part, in drinking a little now and then for several months. Then, after about 4 months of "experimenting" I began to slide back to my old ways... as bad or worse than before. This time, I'm not going to fool myself into thinking I can handle it. Not going to go there.