Originally Posted by
ananda 
The point is it's like russian rulete...i don't know which time the bullet is gonna show up
So true.
I feel so ashamed right now. I'm still an alcoholic and I'm not fooling anybody, not even myself.
I just kept looking around the bar at the people who were drinking and I felt immense jealousy. I kept thinking, "Look at all these normal, happy people who can come here and drink and just be happy and go home and live their normal lives."
What ridiculous thinking. Why would I even guess that their lives are any different than mine, or assume that there is such a thing as "normal"?
