I completely understand
I too am a wine drinker and surrounded by pretty wine glasses filled with smiling people holding them everywhere. (Living in NYC) I'm proud of you for making it through your first nine days successfully. I've gone a couple of weeks before this successfully, when I was on a medication that wouldn't go well with drinking, but this time seems harder because I know I need to quit forever. I'm only on my second day! Congrats on making it to nine!