I don't like the gossip thing either. I had a group with the new girls and told them that "gossip only hurts the other person and you wouldn't want it done to you if it was you that relapsed." I saw it in my treatment center and I see it at work. I don't like it either.
Hang in there Girl. I think you're doing great. It's progress not perfection and "sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly." It was slow for me too. I felt frustrated thinking there was supposed to be some miracle, flash of light, some kind of spiritual feeling that was going to come over me. Never happened. I just stuck to what I was doing, listened and took the suggestions. I just got there on
MY time.
As for the meetings and sharing, I know it's hard to get over that block but I would just throw my hand up and do a short/quick share but just doing that little bit helped me get over that fear of sharing in front of a bunch of strangers. I have no problem with it today.
Keep it up Girl!!! xo