Wow - everyone! Thanks so much for the outpouring of support. It really feels great to be heard, and to have been able to share this with you.
Carol - I find that I don't find the drinkers so interesting anymore (and I'm talking about those who over-drink...), because I'm finding they cannot really follow a conversation and are in their own little worlds. Just like I was. They say the same things over and over and over in the span of a few minutes, just like I did. So, being sober, I find myself going, "Okaaaay...now what?!" But it does help me understand exactly where I was at - where I was stuck for so long, and truly TRULY makes me grateful for my new found sobriety. I love this new life, and I don't want to lose it ever again.