H is starting to relax and share his thoughts with me about this
I've posted before that my H was less than stunned and amazed by my early sobriety, and that I found that discouraging, etc. Well, I'm on day 43 today, have 6 sober weekends under my belt, and he is finally starting to open up a bit. He told me it is so nice not to have to "babysit" me anymore. Or worry about me accidentally hurting myself seriously. He said in his mind, it wasn't a matter of if but when, and it was on his mind constantly.
I shared with him that it's such a relief for me not to be worrying about how my drinking looks, or when or if I'll black out and on and on. What I didn't realize was he had all this worry too. I never realized that. But he shared it with me, and freely gave me credit for not drinking, and actually thanked me for it.
I thought it was a great breakthrough, and makes me feel like we're on the 'same side', that I am on the way to becoming a trusted partner on this vs. the alternative.
It felt really really good not to disappoint him.
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