"Can I use that bad thinking to stay sober TODAY until I gather my toolbox and start the step work with my new sponsor? I know once I grow I can let that thinking go, but for now its working for me."
Absolutely, I started out with the thought of just one year. Then, the thought of after the kids are grown and I retire. Of course today, after hard work on myself, I can't imagine ever wanting too.
Oh, and I hope you don't refrain from sharing things like this with your sponsor. :-)