Hi Soph:
My problem hasn't been alcohol, it's pain pills. But just as you are struggling with this relpase. I too as of 17 days ago have started over once again. With my injuries I deal with on a daily basis, I can stay on the pain meds with no problem. But I prefer not to. I like the person I am off these meds more than I do when I'm on them.
I wanted to suggest two songs that I like to listen to that seems to help me a lot when I can't seem to get my mind wrapped around the reason why I can't take these meds w/o a problem. They are;
Amy Grant - Hope Set High (Lyrics)
Mariah Carey - Hero (Lyrics)
You can listen to them on your free FB music player if you don't have them.
The other thing I like to watch and listen to is Susan Boyles youtube. The song she sings gives me such a lift. Plus the reaction from everyone is such a joy to watch. I love the fact she came from nothing and made it to where she is now.
YouTube - Full Version. Susan Boyle - Britain's Got Talent.
I sure hope these things help you a little. Take care and be kind to yourself.