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Old 02-05-2010, 06:23 PM
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clearlyheaded
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Your story sounds familiar, the drinking parts. Secrecy, irritability anticipating when you can get to it (or when something interferes), and increasing amount/potency. I'm on day 4 of abstinence after 10-ish years of drinking wine nightly. Started out as 3-4 glasses and increased over the years to 1 - 1.25 liters per night.

A talk with a doctor is a good start, just be honest; doctors can have some good info. and resources (medical and therapeutic). I, too, have a strong history of alcoholism in my family and seriously thought that watching my dad destroy himself would prevent myself from letting "this" happen to me. But as my therapist put it, some of us are bitten by the addiction bug and some aren't.

I'm looking forward to spending my energy on actually living my life, rather than obsessing about alcohol or figuring out ways to cover my tracks so my husband wouldn't know the extent of it.

Welcome, and best to you!
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