Well, I have been attending AA for about 5 years and altho I was still drinking, it was much less than b4...in my head, at the time, I was trying to quit unsuccessfully. In hindsight, I certainly was only applying "half-measures". I was unable to be honest with my sponsor and with my meeting mates about my efforts. I sort of have a "b4 AA" and an "after AA". During the first period, I was unable to be honest. During the second, I got a different sponsor, did the Steps and gave it all that I had.
Astro, just so I am clear. I posted not to solicit war stories of deception, but rather to do some housecleaning that I feel is necessary to my own recovery.