When we are drinking we don't see the insanity and the unmanageability in our lives.
It's good for you, you are starting to see the truth.
I used to make notes too because I blacked out. I am a compulsive overeater who binged on food when I got drunk. I used to make notes on all the foods I wanted to eat in a binge. You see if I woke up the next day and found that I had not eaten something on the list, I would have to start the process all over again.
The real insanity was that I would start the whole process off regardless of whether or not I had binged on something or not.
In the end I had to turn off the phones because I would never recall any conversation I had if I had been drinking.
Thank God I am sober and abstinent today.