thanks
thank you for the posts guys,
every pot enhanced my thinking... If I am honest with myself I know I shouldn't drink for the reasons you have all described... I also know that I may not have had obvious physical withdrawal but I would have struggled to have had two drinks and stopped... I prefer not drinking at all and how I feel now as opposed to the feeling of believing I could only have one or two.....
Aside from the above, the fact that I perceive holiday, having a good time with drinking does also suggest that I need to do more work on my relationship with alcohol...
You are right my wife is a smart lady, she also has the patience of many saints....
Thank you for giving me the insights and wisdom I needed at an important time.... I am committed to coming back at the end of the holiday and being 6 weeks alcohol free...
take care all