Hi christmaslights! Glad you found us.
That used to be me too. I got much worse though, but life was constantly filled with drinking and I LOVED my wine.
I'm done and have been sober for almost two and a half years now, so awesome!!! I do NOT have the cravings any more and it's amazing that I live my life everyday sober. I don't miss it any more.
By the way, alcohol tends to give us anxiety. I didn't believe it until I got sober and the anxiety left.........as well as sleepless nights. After a week I was sleeping soundly which I also didn't think I could accomplish without getting plastered before bed.
Just keep reading and posting. There's tons of support here, this site is AWESOME!!!!! Welcome to SR!
