I hope you can get up the nerve to go. More than likely you'll find lots of people there with the same problem: alcohol. They understand the problem and they have a solution. Give it a try, what have you got to lose except your dependence on alcohol.
Welcome to SR!
I used to say I put the fun into "functioning alcoholic"
when in truth my fun bottles were long empty.
that was so true for me also... It was no longer fun and no longer worked to 'medicate' my depression and anxiety, but only made it much worse.