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Hi all.
Have been struggling with drinking for several years now to the point where I hate myself and could quite easily hurt myself.
I am 34, have a brilliant son who is just 2 and i can't bear the fact that he will eventaully see me as a drunken crying mess. Although I don't drink while he is awake as soon as he goes to bed me and his dad are immediately drinking.
i am completely anxious and know that i need to stop (i did stop when pregnant but old habits crept back) i can never have just a couple I always have to go over the top and I completly envy anyone that can. I feel so bad today after last nights drinking that I have been for two glasses of wine for lunch. It has not made me feel any better and i have the whole afternoon in work.
I really need to give up and get my life back on track. I feel like such a bad mother, tomorrow must be day one!!