Hey there,
When we begin to 'get it', Everything begins to change. We have so much support and our whole outlook on life is completely different....
Then we have to stand in front of a judge where we are 'just another drunk'.
Humility, I guess. :-) You sound very good. You will be able to hold your head up in that courtroom because you have continually been doing the next right thing. A sponsor, meetings, and some honest time under your belt (hats off to you).