Hi Scarlet
It sounds like you have a "desire" to stop drinking. Some of us go to AA and in those meetings, that is all that is required.
if you have a desire to stop drinking then keep posting here, use the chat room, read the sticky notes and ask for help, you dont have to do it alone.
Keeping busy def helps!
Hang in there - ive had many days where the end of the day drink would be great but it passes....
Take care
LH