Thank you Carol (: Long time no talk.
And yes, we -can- and DO. I met two people tonight at AA who both have been sober longer than I've been alive.
I'm scared right now, and very upset with myself, but I'm trying to let it be in my HP's hands. I also, as part of my bond, am on a 24/7 program, where I have to take breathalyzers twice a day, and can be randomly stopped for one at any time by any cop, and they can also search my place for alcohol or drugs whenever they want. It might sound rough, but I'm actually very glad. I know I'll be sober during this, because if I fail one I sit in jail until a judge will see me, and I really, really dislike jail.