I can relate. It took forever for me to even start to enjoy a meeting. I go so far as to want a huge bubble around me. It's not that I feel everyone is "tainted" it is just I am not comfortable having people sit almost in my lap the way some meetings are so packed. I found that finding a meeting that wasn't crowded and getting some air space around me helped. I also have to force myself to chat up folks. It gets better and I have made my peace with the situation but it was horrible in the beginning. Hang in there and don't let that get in the way of your recovery.