teke - thanks for your post.
I have accepted that he is an addict and that is the life he has chosen.
But I don't like it.
I realise that life is much easier without addiction in it, and I don't panic and worry like I did when he was here.
It took me quite a while to be able to relax after he went but I have started to.
I will start trying ' I'm not going to think about him today ' I also have been saying to myself ' I love myself more than I love him ' severals times.
Thank you all for caring, I don't have ANYONE to talk to about this.