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55438, congratulation on 50 days!
Originally Posted by
Stealthealer 
And I know what isn't normal behavior for me- thinking of alcoholism and sobriety every day, which is something I wasn't doing when I was drinking.
I agree. It's not normal to think about sobriety every day. At the same time, I think it wasn't normal to have for me to have more than 1-2 drinks each day. I don't think benders are normal even though society encourages us to let loose that way. I haven't found normal yet but I'm starting to like the place that I'm in right now. Most of the time when I think of sobriety, it gives me a peaceful feeling. Right around 5pm, thinking of sobriety makes me cranky. This only happens for a couple of hours at the most. Then, I'm back to feeling peaceful. This is opposite of how I used to be which is cranky most of the time and happy for a couple of hours.