My Aunt...
My aunt is dying of stage IV cancer and I don't know how to feel about it. I truly don't know how to feel.
I've tried to be happy for her (finally pain free), sad, angry, etc. but I just have an emotional block. I'm trying to deal with sobriety and this and I still feel like an emotionless blob yet I can read a thread about someone's sponsor and feel the pain.
I don't know what's wrong with me, am I using some sort of denial technique to prepare me for her death by avoiding the reality? I'm trying to accept the reality but I can't seem to get it to bother me like I feel it should. Or maybe, I don't see the need to morn her loss when she is still here.
I just don't know - it just doesn't feel right.