for some reason i cant control my drinking...i tried for about 3 years & wrecked myself. failing health, almost died 3 times and destroyed all the meaningfullrelationships i had built over m,y life. i turned into a very unhappy soul, where the only pleasure i was getting out of life was getting drunk. i was pretty good at pretending i was ok & a 'normal' human being. i just wanted people to perseve me to be normal and got good at doing. except when i was rotton drunk.
Put simply. i was/am basically an addict who is unable to control alcohol.
I also have/had plenty of reasons why i should never binge drink. study, family, health, sanity etc. yet a few 'quiet' drinks would invariably end up with me drinking myself into oblivion. and of course my life slowly but surely fell to bits.
I have now accepted that i cannot drink ever again, well i could take a drink but the hell that would ensue is just not worth it.
I am learning to enjoy life without drugging my brain with ethynol...slowly. will be 2 months in a few days...lookin go forward to the rest of my life
go me
hope everyone else is ok and hanging in there.
for ya support it helps.