hi LMW
I'm sorry to hear things are still hard...I think the way through is, as I said before, one day a time, always reaching out to others, and reminding yourself that there's nothing a drink makes better.
I am worried for your children tho.
I know you're doing your best and I'm not beating you up...but I'd be remiss if I didn't pick this up again - your husband dealing out of your home is one thing, but having someone drunk watching the kids?
They're both situations that need to be addressed with some urgency LMW...we both know that.
Please think about your mothers offer again to help pay for daycare - I really believe some things are more important than pride.
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