I'm sorry, Intention, if it seemed like I was being a naysayer as far as AA/NA.. I think that they are great organizations that have helped countless people.. I just feel a little humiliated and ashamed in my current state of anxiety, misery, and physical/emotional sickness.. I once stayed away from alcohol for a year.. but I used Xanax everyday.. (Sigh) It's like I only know one way to live.. I feel ashamed because most people think I'm a strong ,resonably young man.. when actually I'm a bag of fear and sizzling nerves.
I also get severe depression when I think about the years in my 20's when I should of/could've been having fun but instead spent all that time in a bottle or a bag..