Well, you pretty much described my dad to a tee, except he is definitely still as active an alcoholic as ever.
I never want to blame anyone for my problems. I had an ex-boyfriend who ended up a drug addict and he blamed everything on the way his mom raised him. My problems are my problems, my cross to bear, and I will find a way to deal with them appropriately.
But there is no denying that my father's actions contributed to who I am today.
And there is no denying that he, too, will die a lonely and sad man who never learned, never saw how beautiful life can be without alcohol.
I have spent a lot of time crying over this very issue during the past few days. I know I can't go back and change the past. I just wish the past was different. I wish it hadn't had such a dramatic effect on me. I'm sad for him, I'm sad for me, it's like a little pity party I guess.
Thanks for sharing this.