Hi all,
I hope you r well. Last night was not so good.. Even after ingesting 13 beers and 3 mg of xanax over the day, I was a wreck at about 3:00 am. I got up and tried to distract myself by cleaning the kitchen but it wasn't long before that demon monkey slipped it's icy cold arms around.. I ate a 1mg klonopin and drank 4 coors light, went back to bed and fell into a horrid,sweaty sleep where I dreamt of the song "Oh Donna" by Richie Valens, except the chorus was "Obama" (No Joke)
Now I am up and about to have some egg whites but my emotions are a trainwreck.. I feel so fragile.. like I'm made of balsa wood and gauze...
I probably would've taken Xanax but I dont have enough b/c I abused it
6 beers sit in my fridge, and I feelk like absolute garbage..
U people were great last night, by the way.. Things would've been MUCH worse without you. Thanks for your gentle kindness...
-Steve-