Wytchy

Same here, Steven. My psychiatrist knows I have a history of alcoholism since I've attempted suicide too many times too count, even for me. I've always attempted it in the past by DELIBERATELY mixing meds with massive amounts of alcohol.

The last two suicide attempts were serious enough to get me a few days in the ICU unit and then a mandatory hold in the psych ward once out of ICU. That's how I wound up with my current psychiatrist. He was assigned to me after the mandatory psych hold.

My family doctor knows (knew) of my alchohol abuse. After my 14 months of sobriety, I was able to tell both of them I was no longer drinking and that was the truth.

Now when either or both of them ask me if I'm still drinking, I lie and say 'No', because like you, I'm terrified they'll take my meds away.

Not a good way to live (or possibly die).