Hello Time4AChange:
I too signed on to this site 5 days ago. I'm on day 5 starting today from taking Hydro's. I've had my fill of them and the way they turn my life and world upside down. This isn't my first dog and pony show with these pills. I'm not a drinker so I don't know much about that problem. But a drug is a drug and if you are dependent on it, it can ruin your life and turn you into somebody you don't want to be anymore. I'm coming off of these cold turkey. But it sounds like you are going to need professional help.
You say you need to do this for your family. YES you do. But you need to do this for yourself FIRST!!! But having a family will give you a goal to strive for if that's what it takes to get you to quit.
I've posted my story on the "For Women Only" side of things. Go check it out. I wish you the best. I'm here off and on all day. If you need someone to talk to, give me a jingle. If you aren't allowed to post a PM then post it in this thread.
HANG TOUGH!!