I am also new here. Just joined today. Your post is wonderful and rings true to me in so many ways. I am also disgusted with alcohol. I like it while I am at the tavern drinking with friends but the next day I hate it and I am always mad at myself. Sometimes I sit in my car in front of the tavern and look at it because I really don't want to go in. But I do and once I have a couple I feel better and am glad I am there. It is so stupid. I hope this feeling of disgust stays with me.