Hi 2be
I'm sorry for your troubles
it is not fun to hang out when my siblings are having fun drinking.I am so bummed out about not being able to drink.
Did *you* have fun drinking though? 'Play the tape through' as they say - remember where your last drink really took you.
Early recovery can be, and often is, rough 2be - I wouldn't enjoy a raucous family drinkfest now, let alone at 30 days - but the good thing is you're not alone here @SR
Are you using any other support groups besides SR?
Keep posting - it really does get better from here
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