Hi Anonjoe
This really jumped out at me
But that isn't me. Isn't who I want to be.
I remember thinking that - for years - and never seeming to be able to do anything about it.
Eventually I worked out I had to stop drinking, regardless of how strange and terrifying I found the prospect.
3 years on - it's been hard, but I've never regretted making that decision.
I'm much closer now to the man I want to be - I'm content, I'm happy and I don't feel ashamed of myself.
Removing the drink is the first step - and the support I got here at SR was vital for me in staying the course....you're not alone
Good to have you here
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