Alright man. I'm 24 and have been sober 6+months.
I too used stimulants (speed, Coke, E, BZP) to keep me from blacking out and awake longer so I could drink for longer and in bigger quantities.
I can relate to much of what you post.
Only when I gained total acceptance of my alcoholism was I able to gain this sobriety, and that has to be enforced by a programme of recovery, I choose AA/SR, In answer to your question No I definately don't feel angry that i cant drink, for me the compulsion to drink has been removed on a daily basis at the moment providing I do what i need to do in my recovery each day.
I had to embrace recovery and "work" it for that resentment of my alcoholism to be removed.
I don't think it's something that can be forced imo, you are only ready when you're ready. I was ready and at the stage where I was 100% sure I am an alcoholic and that if I continued then I was going to die, go to prison or mental institute. I am grateful for my acceptance.
Stick around man and just take it all One day at a time. Just for today I will not drink/use.
Peace x