hang in there fella, sometimes rock bottom needs to be hit! mental application to life!!
ie,change of attitude change of circumstance, i had a similar experience were i had
this safe job for a number of years,and it was ok, we had a kid an my mrs job was the
safer job to hold onto, so i tried to go part time, but my company didnt let me, so guess
what ended up lookin after a six month old baby 3 days a week, was so sure one of my
associates would have some pt work i couldnt find work for like 3 months, i felt quite
humiliated small, shamed almost, boy when i got back to fulltime work again i never
ever took for granted a job again, and the few associates around about who actually
took pleaure in my plight!! well them suckers were shown for what they were, and
i saw every dogs out for themselves, no matter how much pretentious sympathy
they put my way, it really is a case of look after your own, and trust no one but
yourself.:wtf2 good luck.