Hi guys
yes, I do recognize you're trying to help, but PTSD ain't just needing to sit through uncomfortable feelings. I do that plenty, on a regular basis. This is a trigger, a medical trigger that needs to be capped off in order to process.
Let me be clear. Unless I stop the physical and emotional symptoms of the trigger, I can't process what I need to. I will shake, maybe vomit, obsess about the event. Think a vietnam vet having flashbacks. Yes, exposure to the things that create triggers over time will desensitize you, but the first course of actoin is to cap it off so you can.
I called my sister, the one crying in the photo, and she totally validated me, told me that picture summed up her life; crying while people laughed at her. She said it's no wonder our family doesn't get it, they're not working on themselves.
I was planning my revenge on my family, the email I was going to send them all before the medicine kicked in...