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Old 01-19-2010, 07:33 AM
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Welcome Safira!

Your story sounds pretty dang familiar to me!

I started drinking heavily when I was in graduate school also. At the time I didn't understand the correlation between success in life being at a high profile school and drinking. I think you may be quite ahead of the game on that one.

I became sober for the first time after I left graduate school. It lasted a few years, and I went to meetings, but I was really not recovering.

After a relapse in 2007 I went to talk to a psychologist and she quickly surmised that I was drinking to punish myself. To remind myself that I am nothing of consequence. Any time things were going well in life, I seemed to have the need to drag myself back down.

My most recent relapse in 2009 found me doing very much the same stuff you described -- drinking late at night watching silly things on the tube. And. of course, doing my best to try to keep anyone from finding out about it!

I'm glad you're here with us, and I hope you find as much help from SR as I have.

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