Hi Safira
I think stories like yours are pretty common.
Were you doing anything else beside just not drinking? I only ask because for me I found it impossible to try and be a non drinker when I was still living the same old drinker's life.
The alcoholic voice is relentless as we all know. I've been sober for nearly 3 years now - to do that I had to change a lot of things, and do a lot of work on myself, and stay vigilant.
SR is a good start in that process I think - coming here made a difference for me
Please do stick around and post and read as much as you like - welcome!
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