If you truly want to feel better help someone else. It will help when all else fails, helping another alcoholic/addict. Get a sponsor, work the program, help someone else who is dying. That is what is happening to you at this moment, I was there too. I was dying and no one would listen, I went to a meeting found some sober people and they told me to shut up and do the work. I was fortunate enough to have people who truly understood me and knew nothing they told me would work unless I got out of myself. Now I have over 10yrs sober and life is still not peachy but it is better then before.