I suffer from depression and have been suicidal in the past - anti depressants have literally saved my life! What I have learned over the years is that I am the one responsible for my own mental health. Finding co dependency recovery has actually helped my depression - I have better tools for fighting it! Just like with the alcoholic, the three C's count here too - you didn't
cause it, you can't
control it and you can't
cure it.
Your X needs to find help for him and work on his own plan of recovery - you can't cure him! You are not responsible for the actions of another adult, you did the right thing for you and your children. You cannot 'make' him commit suicide, it is his choice and his choice alone.
You cannot control what other people think of you so let it go. Just do what is right for you and keep your own side of the street clean.
