Hey Dub. I loved booze right from the get go. Everybody is different. Try not to analyse it all too much and just try to live in the solution rather than the problem. The analysis can start once you're living succussfully sober.
What I have learned is that peoples path to alcoholism are very, very different but the solution to that problem is the same. Total abstinance from that first drink on a daily basis and then working a programme which changes the way you think, feel and react to people/places/things.
I was also very successful at many things in my life but I came to realise with booze the problem was looking back at me everytime I looked in the mirror!! I had to change me in order to stay sober because I am an alcoholic thus my thinking is always gonna take me back to a drink eventually!!
peace and Love