Thanks for Sharing your story, I really feel for you and am very glad that you are reaching out to us here and moving forward with your doctors advice. I have struggled with depression and loss for a very long time, getting clean is a major step towards working through the pain and loss. You are giving yourself and your son a wonderful gift buy doing what you are doing and taking back control from the bottle. I am wishing you all the best of success and hope that you feel better soon! Today is a new day we have to make a positive change! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings, it has really helped me.