Bear,
Congratulation on 14 days and reaching out for support. Glad to see your focused on the "not drinking" part of the problem.
I've been sober a few years. But I did not get sober my first year in recovery. It took me a year to become convinced of what kiethj has so eloquently summarized for you above.
The disease would tell me:
OK I believe that might be the case for some.
OK some of it may be true for me.
OK but I still have some control over it.
OK but "what if", and "yeah but", and "......."
Today I know my alcoholism can put up one hell of a convincing fight in it's own self-preservation. But I wish I would have read what he states above much more often. It surely would have helped even the battlefield.